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Wednesday, November 28th, 2007

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Subject:There are things that are more important than money.
Time:2:18 am.
I am out here on the west coast, missing my friends. I moved out here with Nathan into a small, dingy basement apartment off of commercial drive. We had an awesome time: Living with your best friend is amazing, as far as roommates go. But after a few years of being in a new city I decided I wanted to be apart for awhile and see what else was out there. Leaving my nest lead me to a lot of new people and ideas, but looking back I'm not sure I really appreciated how much I would miss having someone who really knows me. I guess it's one of those things where someone is only half of what you think you want, so you can only be friends. I digress.

Anyway I originally moved to Vancouver, half out of wanting to go on an amazing adventure and half out of wanting a taste for freedom from my family. I had been given true freedom while in Katimavik. It was a magical time; I met people I would have never bothered to talk to, and 9 months living together made them my friends. From that, I couldn't bring myself to go back. I never regretted this decision.

The only thing I regret in leaving Ontario is leaving my best friends(other than Nathan) in the entire world. I still remember my friends picking me up from my 9 month trip away, and that car ride to Amber's place when I told Rachel and Amber that I wouldn't be staying back home for much longer. I mentioned something about Vancouver, and an apartment. Amber started to cry, and my heart broke. Because the thing about Amber is, she understands the gravity of things. She knew that I wouldn't be coming back for a long long time. Something that hadn't quite hit me until then.

Being out here has changed me, but not as much as they think it has. People are wondrously resilient to change. Even though distance and writing style might suggest otherwise.
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Friday, March 2nd, 2007

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Subject:a picture taken today at the dollar store
Time:8:43 am.
this was both funny and informative.

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Sunday, November 19th, 2006

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Time:11:18 am.
nathan understands me. and so do you.
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Wednesday, July 26th, 2006

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Subject:turkıye does sushi
Time:1:17 pm.
I am still kickin it here in BC, keeping my poor bum clothed.
the decision to go back to school is (and I know it's cliche)like pushing my boat out into a huge ocean. now that the details are finalized I can start to realize it. embarking on a longer journey than I can allow myself to imagine. I cannot see the other side of this and that feels.. okay.

for the next month I will be like a leaf oscillating back and forth - Peterborough awaits - until I finally hit rock bottom, or my credit card is maxed, either way. yay.
Girls, be prepared to eat way too much chocolate and trash boys, even tho I love those penis-laden folk, it's been faaar too long. the GOSSIP must be realized!!

oooh and eating sushi twice a day is getting expensive so I went out and bought lots of seaweed paper and rice, wasabi ect.. drool. sushi party at my house..err apartment.

there are four interesting books sitting unread on my side table. it's very fortunate that I won't be working in september. oh well I suppose i'll start showing up for bookclub with the vegan-godess-women that drive me absolutely crazy. or not.

meeting new people is fun and easier now that i'm not stressed at work and looking like I want to kill things all the time. Actually I got nicely buzzed at work the other night off of Vodka and lemon sorbet. It's best to keep the cat-calling to a minimum at these times.

I went to a real live swing-dancing event last month and I wore fushia and had an excellent time. I also found out they're offering free swing-meets at the College. Is that lame? well I think it's neeto and spiffy ;)

no more awkward bum shaking for me.

love Sarah
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Friday, March 17th, 2006

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Time:2:11 am.
last night i was walking up my hill that i always do after that long day that i have.. it's such a depressing hill.. there are so many more poignant things to write about but let me just drag this description through the dirt for awhlie as to emphasise how interesting my day was: just look at it! it's unexplicably pointy.. the hill is laden with a park and some buildings.. yeah... maybe that's why it sucks.. it's not interesting.

blah.

The only thing interesting that ever happened on that hill was last night as i was smoking my first cigarette after the one that was supposed to be my last, i saw two figures pass and continued on until i heard the most familiar French accent say "sarah" and i spun to see Benjamin... My old Fucking PL from Katimavik! it was so trippy and surreal, he hugged me SO hard.. it was just about the only familiar feeling in the last 8 months.. so many images of my old group came back in the instant of an unexpected blip..

Imagine running into the person I most needed to see, and miles away from where they aught to have been.. living now on my street.. invites me for a beer.. how many moments had lead us to this moment, how beautiful

and yesterday and today recieving a package from rachel full of colouring books she had hand picked and printed and ribboned.. and cd's of the most emo and metricky kind.

Then my mother sends me a letter telling me she's clean of so many things that have been plaguing her for a lifetime..

Part of life is realizing that it can't all be fucking sunshine... and that's good.
tonight my most awesome of friends calls me to tell me that: an aspect of the most unsettling nature has presented itself in her relationship.. It just so happens that this idiosyncrasy is the very reason that Nathan and I are drifting ever apart.. how do people on the other side of the country understand me more than the person who sleeps on the other side of the bed? i almost wish men sat around talking about us.. maybe they would figure something out... at least more fart jokes would be discovered if they talked more..

who knows, maybe I'll discover more fart jokes.
this needs to end.
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Saturday, March 4th, 2006

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Time:2:07 am.
a few things
a cigarette
more coke for the rye
and
less of whatever you call this...

can't sleep for the desire to continue to listen to this music, it feels understood.
when you lack understanding you can find yourself doing silly things like that..listening to music..knowing it was inspired by some unexplicibly sad thing.. it's comfort in misplaced-emotional-form
i knew i'd be like this again tonight
I only wish we had a learning curve for this.
If only we could harness this pain and use it for anything but pain alone.
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you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Subject:we're so fucking good at saying goodbye
Time:12:54 am.
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just one box full of objects to remember you by... it's like a fucking footnote in a book of you.


"i'd have to put this house in a box"-Amber
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Friday, February 17th, 2006

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Subject:"..i did not do those drugs, or steal those underpants.."
Time:5:08 pm.
Mood: confused.
the back of photographs should be easier to write on.

i bought green tea for $7.50 (!!!)and discovered it tasted better drowned in milk and honey
i really wanted to like it, i promise, i'm just not a purist i guess.. :S
i'm addicted to food and drink that contain preservatives and 3 or more ingredients

i will not eat my pizza without garlic sauce!
i will never be a vegan *huff*
unless.... i go out into the wild.. yes.. that's always sucessful :/

speaking of that, my apartment ran out of milk 3 days ago, finally milk arrived but I then discovered
i'd eaten an entire box of cereal without milk, now we only have honeycomb :(

there's something wrong with me!
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Friday, January 27th, 2006

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Time:7:25 pm.
ha! i can't even believe it. it's Jan 27th already, i'm dunking funk.
updates and replies to follow but as i've said, i'm inebriated, slightly, and well that's enough.
But i had to be this way because we're going to a concert we spent copious amounts of money on.
Yay, Vancouver.
But yes, i'm one of those awful people that attend concerts they only somewhat show interest in.
yes. It is Coldplay, and yes, i *insert a word less harsh than hate* Xand Y.
it's just not lyrically good. at all. sad in comparison to all the others. basically ...yeah/

bye and goodnight and so long.

farethee well.
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Thursday, January 19th, 2006

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Subject:aww highschool!
Time:2:25 pm.
Amber put this on my locker in grade Ten or something :)

FNORD!
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Monday, January 16th, 2006

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Time:10:32 pm.
This is just an entry about feeling obligated to write because of
some seemingly on-the-rocks relationships and these thoughts
that are bombarding me day in and day out....

a few thoughts,
How have I managed to:
A)solicit calls from my Mother which exist for the sole purpose of making me feel guilty for not calling
B)completely blank on the subject of my close friends back in Ontarioland and why or when we stopped talking(i think it's me!)
and
C)lose contact with every cousin, sibling, classmate, co-worker... hell some people who write me letters have very little
reason to beleive i'm alive at all. how do people operate like that?
maybe it's just me, but if im'a write you it's gotta be like the second comming, or i'm dying, or i've given you something fairly nasty.
hmm. must prioritise just a smidgen perhapse.
i guess it sounds a tad concieted, even ungreatfull, but the truth is i'd like to change my ways.
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Saturday, January 14th, 2006

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Subject:"is this madness or is this honesty"-jm
Time:10:39 am.
Mood: scared.
*this journal entry is about a secret that i cannot justify tell anyone, until i'm about 27*
wish i could tell you jm, alas I am sworn to the secret secrecy that is my mind.
-sarah
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Thursday, January 12th, 2006

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Time:12:43 pm.
Mood: but not really shocked.
Everyday I realize once more that there is a lot of learning to be had when you are shit-broke. For instance my current work situation.
Normally working at a low-wage pizzaria wouldn't be very exciting at all. There's the exreme heat and dangerous conditions, the monotonous
ordeal of working the cash and taking orders ect. ect. But then to the exciting parts. It's like all day you are working with these extremely varied group of people, you wouldn't even beleive some of the stuff I could tell you about about the guy who makes the pizza dough, or the guy who's only job is to grate the cheese. These people were established businessmen, head Stuards on well known Airlines, these people speak 2-5 languages, and are more educated than any of my friends. I guess i'm not used to meeting people who have almost double lives in places like those. Most of them are working illegaly because they are simply stuck here in Canada, returning to their homeland means mandatory military service, and the probability of death. So they continue to work at such places, take language courses like english and Japanese, hope to get married and if their lucky it will be someone they can stand, but it's only out of convenience. Because the lengthy process they would have to endure to get Citizenship through marriage is a small sacrifice compared to all the sacrifices they were already forced to make, simply because they were born in an instable region.
It fucking sucks really.
Anyway, i've gotta go to work.
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and I will end with a link:
Nathan's gonna be rolling on the floor What, no more fire and brimstone rollercoster? :(

okay, where was the entire right-wing christian community on this one? In the background, eyebrows raised saying "hmm good point!"?
No.
So who let this guy out of the U.S?

Oh Pat Robertson, one day you'll get your retribution :0
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Monday, January 2nd, 2006

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Subject:this stuff is important
Time:8:22 pm.
i'm so happy with my new LJ!
Nathan says: "It looks like the colour of poop"
and he thinks i'm trying to drug him with very strong orange peko tea :)
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Wednesday, December 28th, 2005

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Subject:is this the thing that it was when i saw it?
Time:9:55 am.
Mood: determined.
okay here's how it works: i'm prepping for the Language Proficiency Index but i'm so fucking rusty at essays so..
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to all those people who have written so many papers that they now start every sentance with a thesis and end it with three supporting points... now's your chance to be a part of someone elses suffering! yay!
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okay...
1]respond with an essay topic(it should be fairly specific)... oh, it can't be about God, War, or Love, c'mon have mercy!

2]i pick the one I like the most(aka the easiest one), i post.

3]you review (yay!?) and we all win because we are amazing and i'll love you forvever and ever.

GO?
i mean.. GO!!!
=D
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Thursday, December 15th, 2005

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Time:1:01 am.
okay before any of you ask, no I have never been a Death Cab For Cutie fan or even a casual listener really... Y'know that one band that everyone freaked out to you about, so just to shut them up you were like, 'Okay, i'll check that out!' but never did. and the years raged on. Yeah that was Death Cab.
How did I manage to avoid them you ask? I guess I don't get out as much as you might think, heh? anyway.. I can't stop listening to

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Car Sex :/ Fack! another one that never came to pass. or another goal!!?
what if parts of you freeze to the window? ooops i ruined the chance of me ever finding that hot again :S
*tries to focus on the cuteness of the song*
ahh that's better
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Tuesday, December 13th, 2005

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Subject:I am not made for this world
Time:12:41 am.
Mood: cranky.
Outrageous** $30 American for an item that weighs appx.1.5 pounds and ships from the U.S...
This is a clear Scam and if there were people being paid to look into this piddly shit, i'd have a case.

it's not that the item only cost me roughly $9/AM(it's all about wieght so it would just be emotional to argue product cost)
no. that's not what pisses me off. It's that if you read back into 'the users' feedback from customers you'd see he's had 40 negative reviews this month. It's happened to SO many people but if you look at his stats it still says he has a %96 positive feedback rating.
It's not hard to drown the real ratings with fake one's, there's no question that's what is going on.

and yet none of us can get him kicked off because there's noone to appeal to. Ebay claims little responsibility for the actions of it's sellers, unless an item is never delivered, other than that you're pretty much on your own.
yet if you fail to pay, they're on you like syrup to a pancake!

So why such an inflated Price? Do I not bleed?!
in most cases it's even cheaper to ship from the States than within our own borders (yeah! rediculously enough)

to charge an exorbitant amount of money like that, you've gotta know that whoever falls into the trap are helpless to defend themselves.
And that is undeniably true. They could very well charge 70.00 in shipping so i guess they let me off easy ;O

I looked into it further and:
In some cases like this they counted on the buyer to freak out and email them being irrational so that they(the seller) could claim harrasment. They will get a buyer kicked off faster than you can say.. something very fast.

So here's the thing.. i'd rather not pay. I'd rather be a baby, whine a little and eventually be booted off Ebay.
I mean it's a viable option. Just walking away? But maybe i have to 'take it up the ass'. which hurts.. real bad.
I mean, in the end it IS my fault for being so unwitting and naive. Fuckity.
*Bends over*
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Saturday, December 10th, 2005

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Subject:'the movie adaptation of the sequal to your life..'
Time:8:35 pm.
a man comes in for coffee most days. she rushes about clumsily spilling cappuccino over her (thankfully) brown apron.
leaning over he offers her a choice of one of 78 cards. she obliges, not quite curious, but why not, she's spilling his coffee.
overturned. a woman's face downward cast towards those strinking hands, they are so happily working. Content in her craft he says.
why not.. come for a reading he says...

to be continued?
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yay it's such fun to write like that, even if your not good at it! I'd like to thank the academy.
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you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Time:11:43 am.
is it just me, or is it International Human Rights Day?!
It's a tricky day.
no matter *what* you do today you're fucking over someone who lives half-way around the world.
(lets not forget animals)
I mean this is true everyday anyway, even when you try really hard not to(oh i try!),
someone somewhere is paying for how cheap that pillow is(i am a pillow whore too).
oh luxury, your just a thorn in the worlds side.

hmm
for me I can only see this as a celebration of how far the world has come and where we could go from here.
any more that that and it becomes that one day of the year to 'take stock'. which is
fucking prideful, thinking that paying attention to your actions for one day would be enough.
if so, it's just a day that allows you to alleviate a year of guilt.


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Geeeze it'd be easier to think of it as being like the 'buy nothing day' thing,
but instead you try not to kill or torture anybody.
i can *try* anyway.
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Thursday, December 8th, 2005

you're so cute when you're slurrin your speach, but they're closin the bar and they want us to leave
Time:2:57 pm.
Mood: impressed.
i'm coming up from behind, all those with timid natures had better go hide! :P
Peterborough arriving.
christmas coming: makes for crafty things, like me knitting and nathan laughing at the fact, or super bead buying bonanzas.
i'm a bead whore, especially for dinosaur beads!
January willing i'll be starting(finally good god in heaven on a cloud!) university courses.
fast approaching.
next time I see my Mumma she'll have been a month since touching alcohol or drugs and on her way from the psych-ward to a
proper treatment center.
so officially that's my christmas present, that she went because she wanted it bad enough. I'm thinking i'll get her some
knitting needles and yarn when i see her next, since it's been therapy for me lately and god knows months without drugs.. yeah that's just awful to think about right now. So i'll see everyone in 12 days and you better be cheery and shit :)
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